Balancing Reciprocals

I cannot balance myself in the gym,
let alone balance my life
I have enough,
but I always want more

I want to laugh until I cry
I want to sing and dance and make my mantra to always have the most fun

It starts with one word: Yes.
To transition from the word of negativity to a word that is inviting,
it's just a start
It says: "I am happy, and this is me sharing my happiness"

But I enjoy my bitter moments
I do not want to thrive it them forever,
and let them be all that define me

I want the weight of a little word to not be unmanageable
I want to be aware
I want to let my expression not intrude on others
I want happiness
I want to smile and laugh because I saw the face of a person I love

Reciprocal love is happiness,
be it my best friend or boyfriend
I just want to be Leona Lewis "happy"